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At least I did something productive with the rage and spent the last three hours vacuuming the entire house and scrubbing the ever loving shit out of the kitchen and the bathroom. This included attacking the microwave (dear gods I don't want to even think about the caramelized filth I just scraped off the inside of it), coffee pot, toaster oven and the new-to-me bread maker with brillo and a sponge. I am now sweaty and filthy and frankly still angry at everything and everyone, but satisfied. And I got a lot of cleaning done that I've been meaning to do for weeks, I just apparently needed to get pissed off enough to actually get it done.
I did at least realize why when my mood sours I generally respond by wanting to clean the shit out of things. Generally when I feel this shitty there's an element of feeling out of control, and cleaning is clearly my way of establishing my dominance over at the very least, my space. I AM ANDEE DESTROYER OF FILTH, THIS SPACE IS CLEANSED BECAUSE I WANT IT SO, etc. etc. Right now I'm feeling super out of control for various and sundry reasons... but hey, my house is SPARKLEH. Well, not the tile bits of the floor, that'd require a mop, but there's only so sweaty I'm willing to get in the pursuit of making myself feel better especially as its shaping up to be another hot as Vulcan's anus sort of day.
Showernau.
I did at least realize why when my mood sours I generally respond by wanting to clean the shit out of things. Generally when I feel this shitty there's an element of feeling out of control, and cleaning is clearly my way of establishing my dominance over at the very least, my space. I AM ANDEE DESTROYER OF FILTH, THIS SPACE IS CLEANSED BECAUSE I WANT IT SO, etc. etc. Right now I'm feeling super out of control for various and sundry reasons... but hey, my house is SPARKLEH. Well, not the tile bits of the floor, that'd require a mop, but there's only so sweaty I'm willing to get in the pursuit of making myself feel better especially as its shaping up to be another hot as Vulcan's anus sort of day.
Showernau.
