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I've lately observed that my personality has been slowly reverting to more like where it was when I was about 16 or so, but obviously, with much less teenage crazy. Not that I had very much of that with the exception of a few boy related instances, but all things considered I was a pretty calm, quiet teenager. About the wildest thing I ever did was braid rainbow yarn into my hair and occasionally sneak off with the help of my sisters to go on sort-of-dates with one my two best male friends. But mostly? I was a homebody (not entirely by choice) and since I was left to my own devices a lot, I tended to create my own fun, staying up in my room on the top floor of the house, watching movies, fooling with my hair, writing stories and reading books. Oh and writing long ass journal entries. You'd think I'd've done my homework more with the amount of time on my hands bit honestly living all up in my own head was a lot more fun.
College and afterwards I had friends in close proximity instead of an hour away and autonomy, which was an interesting combination. I also ended up in a relationship where I ended up being the extrovert. That became a trend through my younger adult years (which honestly were a lot more insane than my teens ever could have hoped to be) I'd end up paired with people that were Introverted as opposed to introverted, if you know what I mean. But the past couple of years or so I seem to have snapped back like a rubber band, kind of hunkered down in my white walled cave in front of my computer and only really leaving it when either bored (doesn't happen too often) or my presence is requested (which happens quite a bit, and it honestly surprises me whenever it does).
I don't know. I'm relating all of this like I'm about to reveal some sort of deeper meaning to me essentially rediscovering my own company and tending to prefer it, or at least default to it, but I'm not. Just making the observation, I guess. Not a value judgement, not going to be all MY GOD I NEED TO GET OUT MORE or ESCHEWING HUMAN COMPANIONSHIP FOREVER (a mite difficult when you split a house an a marriage with someone). It's just there and it is, and eh, I'm okay about it.
and now back to poking my CSS.
College and afterwards I had friends in close proximity instead of an hour away and autonomy, which was an interesting combination. I also ended up in a relationship where I ended up being the extrovert. That became a trend through my younger adult years (which honestly were a lot more insane than my teens ever could have hoped to be) I'd end up paired with people that were Introverted as opposed to introverted, if you know what I mean. But the past couple of years or so I seem to have snapped back like a rubber band, kind of hunkered down in my white walled cave in front of my computer and only really leaving it when either bored (doesn't happen too often) or my presence is requested (which happens quite a bit, and it honestly surprises me whenever it does).
I don't know. I'm relating all of this like I'm about to reveal some sort of deeper meaning to me essentially rediscovering my own company and tending to prefer it, or at least default to it, but I'm not. Just making the observation, I guess. Not a value judgement, not going to be all MY GOD I NEED TO GET OUT MORE or ESCHEWING HUMAN COMPANIONSHIP FOREVER (a mite difficult when you split a house an a marriage with someone). It's just there and it is, and eh, I'm okay about it.
and now back to poking my CSS.
