anagramofbrat | Massive memesheepage.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

Day Ten: One confession

Well, I've sat on this one all day and it occurs to me that all I do is confess things and overshare about my life, here, in other journals, on Twitter... yeah it's just all a running commentary of soul baring. And the really juicy stuff? That's shit I lie to MYSELF about, much less share.

I guess I'll offer this up. Some days I strongly feel like my presence in this lifetime is wrong somehow, like I'm not supposed to be here, that as a result every life that touches mine comes away... corrupted? I guess? But that could well be just the depression talking. Most days are okay. Really.

And now a questionnaire meme I yoinked from Facebook:

Say you marry the last person that texted you, what's your new last name?
the last text on my phone is from

aersi , and it occurs to me that I don't know if she officially kept her last name. Though moot point - even though it is in fact legal to get gay-married in MA, she is already happily wed and bigamy ain't legal. Which is okay, honestly, I think I'd spend the entire time getting stealth tickled by

verbena76 .

Course the first bit would still be Browne. All my sisters ended up hyphenating.

When's the last time you fell asleep watching a movie?
I think I dozed off for a minute at the end of Glengarry Glen Ross when

cell23 and I were watching it.

Plans for tonight?
D&D's all done, so sleep?

Are any of your texts in your inbox locked and why?
You can lock texts? But yeah, no.

Is there that one guy/girl that you'll always have feelings for no matter what?
If I fall in love with you, it's forever. Just how I'm wired.

What were you doing at 9:30 today?
Working on cuppa #2.

How many cell phones have you had in your life?
Numbers: 2. Actual physical phones? er. Five? And this one's starting to get crabbity.

What's the last thing you laughed really hard over?
The conversation I had over Twitter between

cell23 and

head58 regarding

cell23's... career options.

What's the last drink you had?
COFFEECOFFEECOFFEECOFFEECOFFEECOFFEECOFFEECOFFEECOFFEECOFFEECOFFEE

...what?

Who'd you first call this morning?
Gotta say, even though it sometimes pisses me off, not having an active cell is kinda peaceful.

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
Hell yeah. The day was kinda crap due to a nasty headache, but the evening was good.

How long can you go without your phone?
Apparently a month and counting. Which is okay, I honest to goodness hate that thing. I'm only ever really planning to turn it back on cause I miss texting.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
A little stressed, but yeah, overall.

If you could go back in time, how far back would you go?
I'd answer things but then

deliriumdeva would kill me *smirk* Nah, honestly, I think I could safely go back to about February and fix some shit. Mostly financial.

Are you the youngest person living in your house?
I almost said yes by default, but it's not actually true. (youngest child syndrome)

Have you ever quoted a line from a movie?
I speak almost entirely in movie quotes.

Do you like candy corn?
Only during the month of October.

Who's in your inbox?
Depends on which one you're talking about.

If there were no letters on the keys on your keyboard could you still type?
Yes. I've been touch typing since I was 9. Not like all properly like in secretarial hand position or nothing, but I only actually have to look at the keyboard when someone draws attention to the fact that I'm touch typing. Like now, lol.

This has made all attempts to switch to dvorak miserable failures, by the way.

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
yeah, at least a little. Most days I'm not that charitable to humanity at large.

What were you doing at 12:00 last night?
Hrm... curled up in bed reading myself to sleep? I think

Anything you're currently looking forward to?
New Years! I'm attending a Roman themed soiree. Shit I have to find a toga.

Do you wish you were anywhere else?
Not really. Unless it's on a highway somewhere.

What are you drinking right now?
Makin tea.

What kind of shirt are you wearing?
pink turtleneck, black hoodie.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yep. Current record is 12 years, 3 months, 6 days, 16 hours.

When was the last time you had a real smile on your face?
See the aforemention LOL moment.

Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?
I don't know who I fell hardest for in the grand scheme of things. Every serious crush turned relationship was uniquely devastating.

When was the last time you had a late night phone conversation?
It's been a damn long time - and I now live with the person I last had one of those with.

What do you have pierced on you?
Ears. 3 in each.

Do you honestly believe that good things come to those who wait?
No, but that's because I'm not naturally a patient person.

Do you want to see someone this very minute?
Maybe after I finish the meme.

Would you get back together with an ex down the road?
In general, it depends on the ex. In my own case? There'd have to be some pretty severe extenuating circumstances that I can't imagine happening.

Do you trust all of your friends?
Depends on with what, but yes.

Are you happy with the way things are going?
Still have brain and money issues but everything else seems stable, which I haven't been able to say in years.

Who was the last person you introduced yourself to?
One of

verbena76 's Geist players.

Are you a forgiving person?
To a fault.

Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone for over an hour?
Nobody in recent memory. You know I hate talking on the phone right? Last person was probably Amanda though.

Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace?
...I'm 32.

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
Yeah.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Quite a few.

Describe how you feel about your life for the past month in one word.
System normal for the most part, with a couple of interesting/extraordinary blips along the way. Chicken pox, thanksgiving and

cell23 's birthday party being the most notable.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Depends on what you mean by fully trust - the answer could be 3, 2, 1 or none.

Would you go back and change any part of your life?
A couple of things here and there, but otherwise no.

Do you wake up in the middle of the night?
Generally no.

Meet anyone new this year?
A few folks. :)

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
Yes please.

Is it easy to make you cry?
not anymore. But it's still pretty easy to hurt me.

I bet you miss somebody right now?
yeah.

What are you planning on doing after this?
Make some tea. Crash.

What is bothering you right now?
Money.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Have you seen how fast I read?

Did you cry today?
No.

Was today a good day?
I got shit done and there was D&D, so yes.

Last 4 missed calls are from?
Whoever tried to call me after November 6th.

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
Oh HELL yes. It's called being a teenage girl.

Last person you saw other than your family?
Game people on Tuesday.

Is there a girl you can tell anything to?
huh, come to think of it I haven't heard from

htl_1126 today.

Will tomorrow be better then today?
Depends on a few things.

Have you ever cried from laughing so hard?
I've also bruised a rib.

Do you like getting big hugs?
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

What does your hair look like right now?
I should probably redo the yarn at some point

Have you ever cried from being mad?
Honestly anger's the only reason I cry anymore.

Would you ever take someone back that cheated on you?
It's REALLY hard to cheat on me. I'm not sexually possessive or have much in the way of rules regarding it. Other things count more for me than where and in what/whom you inserted bits of yourself.

Do you like ferris wheels?
YES. I'm so pissed they took out the Colossus wheel at six flags.

If someone liked you right now, what would you do?
Don't know, do I like them back?

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
A few. :)

Do you know anyone who doesn't smoke pot?
doesn't, a few. Didn't, I seem to be in the minority for never having tried it.

If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
They all had moments, even the bad ones. Most of 2008 can go straight to hell though.

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
I have.

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
Yes. It really isn't fun.

How's your heart lately?
scarred, but still ticking and mostly happy. :)

What's the one thing you do when you're mad?
Shut down and walk away.

Think back to yesterday, what were you doing about this time?
Being relieved that I no longer wanted to gouge out my left eye with an ice pick due to a nasty headache.

Do you prefer profile pictures by yourself of with someone else?
By myself.

When's the last time you had Sunny D?
Gods. College maybe. I think it would be too sweet now.

Is there anything hot pink within five feet of you?
Thankfully no.

Have you ever told someone you hated them and meant it?
Surprisingly, no. I've hated, and do hate a few people, but I've never told them that to their faces.

Do you and your friends ever make up 'code names' for people?
Yep!

Would you rather go out to breakfast, lunch or dinner?
Breakfast Buffet!!

Do you know how to work a barbecue?
Honestly no.

Do you find it rude when people text when they're talking to you?
Most of the time no. It is rude, but it doesn't really bother me.

What's the longest you've ever been out of your state/province?
Depends on what you consider my home state. :)

Do you know anyone who has written a book?
Yes!

How many people could you fit (standing up) in your kitchen?
Wellp, I think I know what my next big party activity will be.

Does your best friend have any pets?
I can safely say yes, as any of the people I'd even remotely consider my best friend do.

Is there something that happened to you ages ago but seems like only yesterday?
I have an unusually clear and linear memory, so I can clearly remember events from age 3 on up in pretty vivid detail. So basically "I REMEMBER EVERYTHING. I REMEMBER EVERY LITTLE THING AS IF IT HAPPENED ONLY YESTERDAY. I WAS BARELY 17... AND I ONCE KILLED A BOY WITH A FENDER GUITAR."

No not really.

Have you ever burned a photo of you and a person you were angry with?
Not with myself in them, no. Pictures are frustratingly hard to burn.

Has anyone ever told you they liked you in a realllly sweet way?
Yes!

Is there any ice cream in your house right now? What kind?
No. I should fix that but I'm not gonna.

Do more people call you by a nickname or your first name?
Nicknames actually. Oddly enough, the better people know me the less they use my actual name. It's gotten to the point that if I hear someone I'm close to use my name, I think I'm in trouble.