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I have just confronted a moment in which I recognized how much of an asshole I could be.
I chose not to be and let the moment go. Generally when confronted with these situations (and they do come up with a fair amount of frequency) I tend to opt to not be a dick. Though more and more as I go on, I'm afraid I do so less out of any sense of morality, kindness, integrity or honor, and more because I fear the consequences. So that just makes me an asshole at heart, I guess, and a wuss to boot. Somehow that's kind of worse.
I wonder what it says about me that there are at least three moments in every week where I find myself thinking that I'd make a fantastic ultimate supervillain if I only had bigger brassier balls... and oftentimes regretting that I don't. I suppose that's a good thing for the greater benefit of the world in general. Don't do much for me personally though....
I chose not to be and let the moment go. Generally when confronted with these situations (and they do come up with a fair amount of frequency) I tend to opt to not be a dick. Though more and more as I go on, I'm afraid I do so less out of any sense of morality, kindness, integrity or honor, and more because I fear the consequences. So that just makes me an asshole at heart, I guess, and a wuss to boot. Somehow that's kind of worse.
I wonder what it says about me that there are at least three moments in every week where I find myself thinking that I'd make a fantastic ultimate supervillain if I only had bigger brassier balls... and oftentimes regretting that I don't. I suppose that's a good thing for the greater benefit of the world in general. Don't do much for me personally though....
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Date: 2010-01-23 04:28 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2010-01-23 06:46 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2010-01-23 05:22 pm (UTC)From:My ability to hurt or manipulate people is inextricably linked to my understanding of them, and therefore my compassion and my conscience. I can't even enjoy righteously *wanting* to do it.
Avoidance of negative consequences is a perfectly reasonable, human reason not to do 'bad' things.
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