anagramofbrat | Ramble on, Rosie

Flail or clean house? decisions decisions. I kinda want to flail and I know I'll be glad I went, but there's the daunting task of dressing up and getting ready to go and blarg. I definitely seem to be in curl up and hide mode as opposed to drag carcass out of house and you know, socialize with actual people as opposed to characters in books/my head. I'm trying to mitigate this by being more or less productive... and of course getting sidetracked with things like Bejewed Blitz and Metropolis on Facebook, Miles Vorkosigan, Livejournal and the tempting graphic vittles on

cell23's comic shelf. (Currently borrowing The Invisibles.) Because I apparently need to read moar? lol no.

Also re: flailing - I love the roomie, but I do enjoy the evenings when she isn't home. That alone may keep my butt home tonight.

I've decided I'm doing NaNoWriMo this year. Mostly for the lulz, as I doubt anything remotely legible will come of it, but seriously I want to start getting in the habit of writing on a regular basis again... fiction, not LJ. I don't really expect to actually win it or anything, but I'm going to give it a shot and see what comes of it. I have a silly little story idea for it and everything. If people want to friend me over there, I'm bottledgoose there too.

Move done, Japanese steel obtained... I've been trying to figure out what Step 3 on the to-do list is. I still need stuff... new glasses for one. I notice I'm holding books closer to my face lately, plus these frames are so goddamn done it's not even funny. And bright things are starting to fuck with me (this is a problem when said things are oncoming headlights) so that pretty much means any antireflective on these glasses is kaput too. So there's that. I still need some goddamn bookshelves. And possibly to rearrange my room, not really happy with the way it is now. Excuse to whip out my tape measure and model things in Bryce, lolz. That may have to happen before the shelves. Also need to get back on track re slicing out the excess sugar, since my pants are only getting tighter lately, and we do not likes it preciousssss. Also not being such a lazy emotard and actually going to the gym'll help with that too. *sigh* I don't know why this is eating at me so much, really, as

11th_letter pointed out, I'm pretty much back where I was before I got sick four years ago, so what changed between then and now? Besides really not being about to afford to replace all my pants just yet, even? I don't know. Maybe it's knowing that a full forty pounds of what I'm carrying is the result of emotional/stress eating and while I'm the same scale number as I was, I'm definitely not in the same shape, which pisses me off. It's all like, great, on top of every other way I've let Them fuck with me, I have to see this particular one in the mirror every day. 'Course on the other hand, it's been years since my digestive system worked well enough for me to actually pack on weight, sooooo silver linings?

I'm kinda excited about going home this weekend. Talked to Dad earlier today (some of you may have read) and he sounds like he'll be really happy to see me. Plus, I love tooling around New York with people that haven't lived there for half their lives or more. I really haven't the slightest idea what

cell23 and I are going to actually end up doing (other than one thing that's going to take a half hour at most), but considering every trip outside down there is kind of an adventure I'm sure something will present itself.... actually. Been a long ass time since I paid a visit to Patience and Fortitude, that might have to be on the list if the building they sit in front of happens to be open.

I have no idea what I want to be/do for halloween. This... actually is depressing fuck all out of me.

I should get a tripod for the Hatemonger already, I've needed one for a year and keep forgetting to just get one. I think after Nano I might start doing the whole picture a day thing just to keep my hand in.

Work at least is going well. My home time finally feels like my own which is fantastic.

Need to warcraft more, especially since I rescued my Vent headset from work. And I just renewed my subscription for the next three months, might as well use it.

I want a copy of Lilo and Stitch on DVD. I've only ever seen it twice, and I want to see it again. Plus there's that whole "'ohana = family" thing spinning around and around in my head that may just be the key to unravelling the pile of snarled string my brainmeats have become this year.

I need to redesign my website and my LJ - this is too dark to read with the brightness setting I usually like to have my ipod on.

ALSO I FRICKIN NEED DENTAL FLOSS AND I KEEP FORGETTING TO BUY SOME HOLY GOD. In fact, I'm going to stop babbling into LJ and see if Sevs has any.