The internet continues to harm me

While braiding Aradia's hair last night, I was treated to this brain bleach inducing horror. It is not safe for work, let alone existence. (And no, I do not mean the doll parts centipede, though that's horrific enough and will give me nightmares. Scroll down.)

just... just... WHAT THE BLESSED BLUE BARNICLED FUCK POSSESSED SOMEONE TO MAKE THAT EXIST OH GOD.

Of course, this must be shared or else I will die in seven days. And because I know how y'all are, here's the link to buy some. They come in Goth, Smurfette and Vampire, if that's any incentive. I expect Na'vi at some point.

The internet continues to harm me

While braiding Aradia's hair last night, I was treated to this brain bleach inducing horror. It is not safe for work, let alone existence. (And no, I do not mean the doll parts centipede, though that's horrific enough and will give me nightmares. Scroll down.)

just... just... WHAT THE BLESSED BLUE BARNICLED FUCK POSSESSED SOMEONE TO MAKE THAT EXIST OH GOD.

Of course, this must be shared or else I will die in seven days. And because I know how y'all are, here's the link to buy some. They come in Goth, Smurfette and Vampire, if that's any incentive. I expect Na'vi at some point.

Left public for a reason

I need to let Carole (and by extension, the rest of the Amoeba) go. And I think I'm finally ready to do that now.

I said this to a few people already, but a general heads up (this is why it's a public post)... I don't want to hear anything further about any of them, good or bad. The good still hurts like fuck and quite honestly will until my own life gets more back on track than it is currently. I've still got a ways to go on that. The bad... Schadenfreude to me is like Burger King - delicious for five minutes and god awful for six hours after that. Plus... I'm just using them to hold myself back. Not healthy in the slightest.

Some tell me I have a right and every reason to stay angry, but the time to get angry about any of it was as it was happening then, not now when it's stupid too late. All it's doing now is getting in my way... and quite honestly I have enough methods of self-sabotage at my disposal to add one more. So to use a gaming term, I'm going to default to my nature and not my demeanor and just fucking forgive them already. All of them. For everything. I'm just so fucking tired of holding on to every wrong, every slight, and I know what I'm like, I'll just carry that shit until it actually does put me in my grave finally. Lord knows it nearly did twice already, don't tell me this shit doesn't happen for a reason. So I'm done. All accounts closed and squared. Clean slate as of now, yippee ai oh kai yay motherfucker.

Of course, letting myself off the hook is a slightly different can of worms, but hopefully if I learn from my past mistakes (and there were plenty; I am not a fun person to be around and certainly not an easy one to put up with when I'm in any kind of pain), I can also manage somehow to forgive myself as well. I know everything going to shit wasn't all my fault (sometimes it's too easy to take the whole thing onto my own head, others times I have to stop myself from absolving myself completely), but I can certainly take responsibility and atone for the parts that were. *wry smile* Builds character after all... I don't know any person that couldn't use more of that.

Anyway. I want to go into the next phase of my life, whatever it turns out to be, with a free heart and a clear mind. Here's hoping this means I'm making some progress in getting there.


( I've had this song in my head since last week, maybe now it'll leave. )

Left public for a reason

I need to let Carole (and by extension, the rest of the Amoeba) go. And I think I'm finally ready to do that now.

I said this to a few people already, but a general heads up (this is why it's a public post)... I don't want to hear anything further about any of them, good or bad. The good still hurts like fuck and quite honestly will until my own life gets more back on track than it is currently. I've still got a ways to go on that. The bad... Schadenfreude to me is like Burger King - delicious for five minutes and god awful for six hours after that. Plus... I'm just using them to hold myself back. Not healthy in the slightest.

Some tell me I have a right and every reason to stay angry, but the time to get angry about any of it was as it was happening then, not now when it's stupid too late. All it's doing now is getting in my way... and quite honestly I have enough methods of self-sabotage at my disposal to add one more. So to use a gaming term, I'm going to default to my nature and not my demeanor and just fucking forgive them already. All of them. For everything. I'm just so fucking tired of holding on to every wrong, every slight, and I know what I'm like, I'll just carry that shit until it actually does put me in my grave finally. Lord knows it nearly did twice already, don't tell me this shit doesn't happen for a reason. So I'm done. All accounts closed and squared. Clean slate as of now, yippee ai oh kai yay motherfucker.

Of course, letting myself off the hook is a slightly different can of worms, but hopefully if I learn from my past mistakes (and there were plenty; I am not a fun person to be around and certainly not an easy one to put up with when I'm in any kind of pain), I can also manage somehow to forgive myself as well. I know everything going to shit wasn't all my fault (sometimes it's too easy to take the whole thing onto my own head, others times I have to stop myself from absolving myself completely), but I can certainly take responsibility and atone for the parts that were. *wry smile* Builds character after all... I don't know any person that couldn't use more of that.

Anyway. I want to go into the next phase of my life, whatever it turns out to be, with a free heart and a clear mind. Here's hoping this means I'm making some progress in getting there.


( I've had this song in my head since last week, maybe now it'll leave. )

in tech news: We amuse ourselves

That right there is proof positive there were no women on that marketing team.


ETA: I'm sensing a theme today people....

in tech news: We amuse ourselves

That right there is proof positive there were no women on that marketing team.


ETA: I'm sensing a theme today people....

and now for something completely different (aka, not a vagina)

Oh what the hell, lets make this an All Of Andee's Shameless Memewhoring post.

Ask Me Anything

and now for something completely different (aka, not a vagina)

Oh what the hell, lets make this an All Of Andee's Shameless Memewhoring post.

Ask Me Anything

Heh

You know, Obama could be reading the phone book, or the bhagavad gita in Hindi or a grocery list or Ethan frome or the entire combined credits list for the three extended Lord of the rings movies and I'd be riveted. Say what you will about him, the man's speechifying is srs bzns.

This entire entry may or may not be an excuse to use these tags.

Heh

You know, Obama could be reading the phone book, or the bhagavad gita in Hindi or a grocery list or Ethan frome or the entire combined credits list for the three extended Lord of the rings movies and I'd be riveted. Say what you will about him, the man's speechifying is srs bzns.

This entire entry may or may not be an excuse to use these tags.